From the notepad

I jotted down thoughts this week as my family stepped away from social media. Here are some of the thoughts I wrote on a tiny notepad, thoughts that made me laugh. Looking at a week at a glance, some may say that it’s a random list, but those that know me will see some common trends. The first couple are the result of overhearing my youngest listening to a Read Aloud book.

  1. How would the mer-people feel about the king’s rebellious daughter selling out and the king being the one to give her legs?
  2. If “every last inch” of Gaston is covered in hair, isn’t Belle just going from one degree of hairy to another?
  3. The author James Joyce looks like Nick Fury or, more accurately, the guy from Airwolf:

    James Joyce


    Michael Coldsmith Briggs III
  4. Facebook is pointless.
  5. I was tempted to write a short story about Esau the were-goat on a mission of vengeance to regain his double birthright. Having given away my previous copy of The Story to a friend, last Saturday I picked up the new edition. I love that book.
  6. I did write two songs. I’ll share them later.
  7. The Star Wars Blu-Ray edition still looks like the Krytos virus to me.

A lesson in wabi sabi

Okay, so that is fun to say.

My friend Mick, a very talented artist, was telling me about a Chinese school of thought (which then the Japanese popularized) but he couldn’t remember the name of it.

It’s called wabi sabi, coming from two characters shared in Chinese and Japanese.

Wabi – used to mean “melancholy from living alone in nature”, but now is more “simplicity in nature”
Sabi – “serenity in the impermanence, transience of things” and a beauty in the aging of things

Essentially, it’s an understanding that things are not perfect, but that they are how they are meant to be at that moment with a knowledge that all things change.

A phrase connected to it is “natsukashii furusato”, “an old memory from my hometown” (at least that’s how this white guy says it).

It’s like the end of the famous love section in 1 Corinthians 13:

12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I see wabi sabi as a reminder that now we only know in part and on That Day, we shall know fully as we are fully known. Art is a tangible reminder of that for me.

Here’s my first ever full attempt at a realistic lion:
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and all I can see are the imperfections and asymmetry. And wabi sabi says, “Yeah. What did you expect? It’s life.”

Today’s picture is a lot different than how I normally draw lions:
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It’s probably not good that I relate best with the villains.

Yes, they do get the cooler outfits, so that is a plus. There’s a photo of me as a really young kid in front of my giant blackboard (thanks, Mom and Dad, for THE COOLEST bedroom wall ever) wearing a Darth Vader shirt. Let’s face it. He’s rad. To be fair, I also had a Wicket W. Warrick shirt and he is sadly lacking in rad.

When I watched Les Mis a few weeks ago, and when reading the book (which has been a three-year process I’m nowhere near completing (do you really have to describe every flower in the field at Waterloo?)), I realized that Javert resonates with me. Something about him is me.

Most of my readers are probably familiar with the show and/or a Google search, but the quick analysis is that Javert is Law Incarnate, pursuing Jean Val Jean relentlessly until justice can be served. So why does that catch my attention?

It’s because of how much value I put on my own accomplishments, how much worth I put in what I do and not resting in who I have been created to be. I judge people based on my own rule book because, frankly, it’s much more comforting to use a litmus test that I’m already good at. The sad thing is that, if I’m being honest with myself, I’m not that good at it.

This is not to grab pity. This is to affirm what Paul says in his letter to the Philippians. Paul had every right to trust in his accomplishments:

  • circumcised on the eighth day – righteous from birth and the way you’re supposed to do it
  • of the people of Israel – not some Greek
  • of the tribe of Benjamin – the only tribe fully loyal to Judah during the civil war
  • a Hebrew of Hebrews
  • as to the law, a Pharisee – not only that, but apprenticed under Gamaliel – the Levitical superstar to be apprenticed under
  • as to zeal, a persecutor of the church – this guy broke up families and gave their kids to “more righteous” families, killed believers of “that Nazarene cult”

So that last part especially reminds me of Javert – the zealous hunter. Now, circumcision is not a huge issue in mainstream American churches. But the heart behind it is: relying on anything other than the Holy Spirit. It’s the same type of heart that Jesus accused the Pharisees of with their burdens that they don’t even carry. I don’t think we’d be as honest with ourselves. I’ve hunted people down in my heart. We are very much like the Judaizers who were believers but said, “You need grace…and this other thing, too.” Jesus plus [X thing that we know is not the right answer but our actions say otherwise]. They didn’t hunt people down physically, yet they added a horrible burden. Setting your mind on anything but the Spirit is death.

With Javert, this is played out literally. Thankfully this summer has been very grace-filled and I can count my Javert-like tendencies as loss.

“Vengeance was his and he gave me back my life.”

Man, I love this show.

Blue Like Jazz movie

If you’ve been with the bloggh for a while, you’ll know that Blue Like Jazz is one of my favorite books. (That link is crazy because, in 2008, I had heard of this guy named William Law, the Donald Miller of the 1700s, and I finally got around to downloading the Kindle version of A Serious Call to my phone. It’s been a while.)

One of the things I love about Blue Like Jazz is that it’s coherent and yet not. It’s Donald Miller talking about his life, but yet there are so many lessons in it. It’s no wonder that right now he’s hosting the Storyline conference.

I’m curious to see how a book that’s so anti-hypocrisy transitions into a movie, a medium dominated by heroes that blow up lots of things to stop people from blowing up lots of things.

Here’s the trailer:

Death in His Grave by John Mark McMillan

I dig John Mark McMillan.

This is the same guy that wrote How He Loves and one of the things I love about his songs are that they use non-churchy words to explain theological concepts. He does a great job of explaining his creative process and inspiration here, so check that out first.

On Sunday, we’re going to be singing Death in His Grave. As a worship team, we don’t want anything we do to get in the way of you worshiping. When learning a new song, it’s sometimes tough to sing along if it’s the first time seeing the words. With Death in His Grave, the words are so poetic we don’t want to miss the truth that those lyrics hold. The song is called Death in His Grave, but if we miss the fact that it’s Jesus putting death to death, we miss the whole song.

I’m going to post the lyrics with links to Bible passages that relate to what McMillan is talking about (some are different than his explanation, but we think they’re still relevant). I know Jeremy is planning on doing the same thing on his site. Hopefully we can get the lyrics out to enough people so we can look at some/all of the references and get a really cool picture of who Jesus is.

These references are a result of the Body in action. Jeremy, my mother-in-law, and I sat in the conference room at church and worked together on this.

Death in His Grave by John Mark McMillan

Though the Earth cried out for blood

satisfied her hunger was

Her billows calmed on raging seas

for the souls of men she craved

Sun and moon from balcony

turned their head in disbelief


Their precious Love would taste the sting

disfigured and disdained

On Friday a thief

on Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
but awoke with the keys
To hell on that day

the first born of the slain

The Man Jesus Christ

Laid death in his grave

So three days in darkness slept

the Morning Sun of righteousness
But rose to shame the throes of death

and overturn his rule
Now daughters and the sons of men

would pay not their dues again
The debt of blood they owed was rent


when the day rolled anew

He has cheated

Hell
and seated

us above the fall


In desperate places

He paid our wages

One time once and for all

Hopefully that helps. Here’s him singing it, if you want to listen while reading:

Mishnah, Tanakh, and the Amidah

Today my oldest sat with us during the sermon. Last summer, in the family Sunday School class, we learned a technique of taking notes during the sermon with our kids. I modified it and, frankly, it helped me pay attention, too.

I always am encouraged when I see parts of Jesus’s life fulfilling centuries-old prophecies. It’s always a reminder that God knows what He’s doing.

So, John was talking about some cool stuff from the Passover feast (and all the rituals that went along with it).

You would need a lamb for your sacrifices:
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The main supplier of lambs? You would herd them up from Bethlehem.

You would bring them in through the Sheep Gate:

(Nehemiah was one of the people who helped rebuild Jerusalem in ~400 BC.)
When would you bring in the sheep?
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Sheep selection day was the week before Passover. Like, Palm Sunday/”Hosanna!”

You gotta make sure your sheep isn’t all jacked up. You need to inspect for faults:
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This is also when the Pharisees and Sadducees starting questioning Jesus about paying taxes to Caesar and marriage after you die. (I drew a Pharisee pointing a finger and Pilate saying, “I find no fault.”)

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Lambs were sacrificed at 9am and 3pm and the shofar (old school vuvuzela) would signal the ritual completed. Check Mark 15:33 and when Jesus was saying, “Eloi! Eloi”

The Amidah are a collection of eighteen prayers that are said at many Jewish festivals. Check out the sixth and fifteenth and picture people praying that during the Passover.
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During the events of the crucifixion was also the Festival of Unleavened Bread:
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and the Firstfruits ceremony:
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Old people are cool.

Another birthday has come and gone, so I can confidently assert that old people are cool.

I finally got around to clearing off some 3.5″ disks at school (where better to find a floppy drive in 2011 than a school?) I really don’t know why I felt like I needed to keep around those disks. 1.44MB doesn’t buy you much these days.
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I am really glad I did, though. Check out why I found:
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But that file sat alongside this file:
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Captionary and Ohm started their married lives on Saturday. What will they be like 50 years from now?

My wife and I saw a movie yesterday – in the theater. I can’t remember the last time she and I saw a movie alone. The last movie I saw in the theater (correct me if I’m wrong (like online commenters need to be told that twice)) was Inception, but my wife and I went with the church staff to see that. It’s been at least a few years since we’ve been alone in a theater. //checking bloggh archives…// Confessions of a Shop-Aholic.

The movie that we saw (don’t want to name it or else it would be Spoiler City (that’s not the name of the movie)) got me thinking about two birthday-appropriate things:

1) What would I do if I knew I only had a minute left to live?
2) Who would I want to spend my last moment with?

I can tell you that the answer to #2 is my wife and daughters, although you rarely get to choose when you die. It’s because of that uncertainty that I don’t have a definitive answer to #1. I’m sure if I thought about it, I would do something with donuts and sharks, but that sounds more like the cause of #1 and not the effect.

With those two questions in mind, I got to thinking about my grandparents and my wife’s and the positive examples they gave. I think people would be less tempted to be jerks to the people they love if they knew they only had a minute left.

Old people that have a sense of the immediacy, the fleetfulness, of life are cool.
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I hope my kids see that in me.
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The Codices


Five years ago tiny books were found in a cave in Jordan. Scholars are still debating their authenticity.

I think it’s cool and hope that the corrosion-dating method is accurate, putting the pages in the time of the first century church. The pages are full of pictures, symbols, and maps. To think that one of the first church members could have held this book is exciting.

I’m still skeptical, though.

One – A lot of money could be made off of fakes.
Two – It’s probably from the first century, but it’s just the old school version of an artsy guy’s moleskine notebook. If you see a bunch of poetry about the angst of being dumped, you’ll know this is the accurate conclusion.

Love and Cackling

I’m reading through The Sounds of Star Wars:

and really liking it. Is this a surprise? No. Thanks again, Jason, for the gift.

One of the things I appreciate about the book is Ben Burtt’s love for what he does. When he was first interviewing to be George Lucas’s sound guy (imagine that interview!), he saw concept art on the wall of C-3PO that reminded him of all the fun serials he watched as a kid. It’s like how my dream goal as a writer is to be asked to do an expanded universe novel.

Here’s a great quote from him about working on Return of the Jedi. Notice his enthusiasm for the saga:

“We were all charged up with when we mixed it,” says Burtt. “We were deep into the scene and felt like we were helping to bring about galactic justice that would cap the entire trilogy.”

The book has a sound file player attached to the side of it. You read the book and play the sound that he’s describing to hear for yourself. I know kids’ books do this, but this book is definitely for the film buff.

Did you know that the sound of the Emperor’s lightning is the same sound effect used in the 1931 Frankenstein film? The old guy that was the sound engineer on that classic film had to be convinced that this “Star Wars” thing was worth his effort in helping. Ben Burtt took a rough edit of Empire Strikes Back to show Ken Strickfaden since Ken had never seen A New Hope.

Strickfaden was blown away and took Burtt to the room where he still had all of the lightning lab still set up.

The craziest sound effect from the Luke vs. Emperor vs. Vader fight is the sound of the Emperor’s Dark Side explosion. Watch the clip:

Do you hear the sound of pigs wailing? That’s in there as he falls down the shaft.

Very Matthew 8:32, in a sense.

I know that some of you readers are fans of the song How He Loves. You’re probably familiar with the David Crowder version. The guy that wrote the song is John Mark McMillan (Don’t worry, there’s still a beard). You’ve got to hear the background story to why he wrote the song. Puts a lot of context to the un-churchy words he uses:

We’ll be recording this song for our live album on April 3. I hope to see y’all there.

Dust

I think that this is my first attempt at serious song-writing. Normally my lyrics involve switching around words for a parody and to make my family laugh. Most of the time that devolves into jokes about burping; if that’s what you came here for today, you may be disappointed. Come back tomorrow. (Or later tonight, depending on how Mike’s show goes.)

I only have experience with lyrics in the same sense that I think most dads have. Both my father and father-in-law are notorious for lyric-swaps. (Slade – “It’s now or never…” What’s the next line to dad’s song?)

All of those ridiculous qualifying statements aside, here are some lyrics remixed from Psalm 39 and Psalm 40 (and HEAVILY borrowed (like “Ice Ice Baby”/”Under Pressure” bass line heavily borrowed) from Isaac Watts‘ notes on those chapters).

DUST

Teach me the measure of my days,
Thou maker of my frame;
I would survey life’s narrow space
And learn how frail I am.

A span is all that we can boast,
An inch or two of time;
None but vanity and dust
In all our flower and prime.

See the race of mortals move
Like shadows o’er the plain;
They rage and strive – desire and love
But all the noise is vain.

What should I wish or wait for then
From creatures, earth, and dust?
Expectations trampled on
In disappointed trust.

You raised me from a horrid pit,
Where mourning long I lay,
And from my bonds released my feet,
Deep bonds of miry clay.

Firm on a rock you have me stand,
You teach my cheerful tongue
To praise the wonders of your hand
In this, my thankful song
In this, my thankful song.

You raised me from a horrid pit,
Where mourning long I lay,
And from my bonds released my feet,
Deep bonds of miry clay.

Firm on a rock you have me stand,
You teach my cheerful tongue
To praise the wonders of your hand
In this, my thankful song
In this, my thankful song.

How to Fight

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The above photo is from a manual created by Egyptian protesters to promote unity. In the manual, they detail proper ways to shield yourself using home implements and where to aim spray paint at riot police. Notice how “positive language” is part of the battle plan.

We’ll come back to that.

Also in the news this week was Casas por Cristo in regards to the violence in the Ciudad Juarez area. The number of volunteers has dropped off in recent years since the U.S. media has picked up the story about drug-related murders.

General readership, I hate to break it to you, but Juarez was violent before we ever heard of it (technically, even back to 1911-1912 and Pancho Villa’s gangs, but that’s for another book, so to speak).

Part of what makes Juarez scary is that some of the police have sided with the cartels for their own advancement or protection. We’ve been traveling there for eight years and even in 2004, there was the drug violence. But the United States is not spared violence. The same weekend we went to Juarez this year, a police officer was shot and killed in New Jersey. This stuff happens in the fallen world we live in.

So, imagine in Juarez a people who don’t know if they can call the police and trust that they will be safe.

Now imagine those people living only in structures made from wooden pallets and cinder blocks.

There’s a need. Oh, I assume people wouldn’t dispute that. I think the issue is who God uses to fulfill that need and how to meet the need.

I’m reading the book Radical right now and it is definitely on my recommend list, although it’s taking me forever to get through. It’s very easy to read vocab- and style-wise. Heart-wise? It’s boot camp.

One section that I just read was David Platt guest-speaking about missions at a church. When he finished and stepped from the podium, the pastor said:

…brother, we promise that we will continue to send you a check so we don’t have to go there ourselves…I remember a time at my last congregation when a missionary from Japan came to speak…I told that church that if they didn’t give financial support to this missionary, I was going to pray that God would send their kids to Japan to serve with that missionary.

I don’t know what offends me more, that the pastor used serving internationally as a threat or that he held up his prayers as more important than his congregation’s. (What’s to stop the congregation from praying against what the pastor is praying? That’s when God facepalms at our stupidity.)

Now, I’m not saying that:
1. The role of sender is not important
2. I am in any way awesomer than anyone else for having gone to Juarez

What I don’t want to see, though, is someone who would have gone but chose not to based on fear. Even our team had people drop as the travel date approached, so I’m not judging people’s convictions.

What I have noticed, though, is the best way to fight:
1. Love God
2. Love neighbor

It’s a true positive message, with power and not just positive thinking. If we have people fighting in this way (and not in the “let’s protest funerals/ComicCon” way) on both sides of the border, I believe that fear will not be given the leniency we’ve allowed it.

Enduring Ultimate Flesh-Eating Monkeys

People may remember a certain ska band:

and a CD entirely of insanity (“Dona Nobis Kenya”, anyone?), so it’s weird that I’m drawing your attention to Enduring Truth, a serious CD. Hear a sample of great bass playing (with some other people thrown in for good measure) by clicking here.

Pick up a copy online right now.


Or nuns will peg you with snowballs.

Casas 2011 – Day 2ish

I should know that people read the bloggh, but it’s funny/encouraging when I hear more than one complaint that there is a gap in updates.

I’m almost ashamed as to why I didn’t put up photos on Sunday night.

I had to watch the very last Hannah Montana episode as it aired on the Disney channel in the hotel. Miley had to choose whether to go to Stanford with Lily or go to Paris with Spielberg. I know, we all are faced with similar choices and, as such, the teen narrative was gripping and I fell asleep without posting photos.

[/end embarrassing apology]

This year’s build was one of our favorites, in part because of the kids we were building for.
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My daughter is quite the ambassador. She gets along with every kid she meets.
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This year was a year of learning new skills. My wife and her crew did the texturing for the concrete slab.
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This year, Casas started bringing in cement from a local (Juarez) business owner instead of having the team mix it from scratch. Usually I wheelbarrow the entire foundation. I felt like a total slacker, like I had no identity, until it was time to drill holes. I even tried to pass off the job to a new person, but drilling is my destiny.
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(You gotta admit – that’s a pretty epic photo.)

The house was finished the fastest I can remember
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and the family was very thankful:
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Casas Day 1 – 2011

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We’re back at the hotel after a great first day of building. The weather was awesome (much warmer but not too warm) and the family we’re building for is super nice (like always).

The family lives on the ranch that we’re building next to. “Ranch” has a loose interpretation. In this context, it means “place where a bunch of cinderblocks are piled up and barbed wire encircles the perimeter”. They live with their boss (can’t imagine doing that) and the whole family helps care for the goats and pigs and tasty birds. (The local church cooked for us. They had a white folding table, which I think is a global requirement for any church function.)

One of the workers said that the little one year-old had been bitten by a black widow and had been near death. The ranch is surrounded by rattlesnakes (imagine that slipping between the cinder block and under your ragged blanket), so the family is especially thankful for the house.

I’ll post more photos when I’m not on the run to Golden Corral, but I’ll leave you with what my pockets look like at the end of the day.

Also of note: crossing back into the United States took an hour and a half, which is one of the longer times. This time, though, we didn’t feel harassed; they just scanned every single car’s passports. The longer wait time has created a begging culture like what we used to see when we crossed through downtown Ciudad Juarez. This poor (in many connotations) kid had to carry around a stone carving of the Last Supper that was bigger than his torso. The beggar lines have only shown up within the past two years as our crossing sees increased traffic.

Doing tough things

At first I was going to put up photos from our trip to the zoo (I still will!), then I was going to comment on how surreal it is to have messaged Rep. Giffords on Twitter about what a great job she did on Friday and how grieved I am about what happened.

Today, though, I debated during my drive to work about what to listen to. I decided to listen to a sermon from Francis Chan entitled “Surrender”. It turned out to be the one where he and his wife tell Cornerstone Simi Valley that they’re stepping down from leadership. Well worth the listen.